To Not Be

I have no excuses
I felt
I trusted
I ended

Time is on speed and
I haven’t moved in years
Murdered by reckless abandon

It was your good intentions that killed me
and I hate you for that
Therefore I despise myself

You are a fire whose flames
Have devoured my meaning
Leaving nothing but a pathetic mistake

I don’t want to be anymore
Burn me back to life

-Stephanie April